Big Bang: not your common existential theory.

As many Hallyu enthusiasts told me throughout the past year, I started off my Kpop journey with the best of the best. It is not a praise, it’s a fact.

Korea’s #1 Idols, kings, best worldwide act, global music stars … They most commonly go by the name of BIGBANG. Overall, I have a thing for names. I just love it when something is properly named; it makes you appreciate the thing in question more. 

Although I love songwriting, I was not really into music. I could last up to a month without listening to a single tune and it wouldn’t affect me in any way. The previous statement instantly vanished once I was introduced to Kpop; and needless to say that I started with THE Kpop: this is my story with BIGBANG: how I got into Kpop, how I found my first bias and how I stanned my first boy band.

It all started with a tune. Taeyang’s Ringa Linga was the song that sold my soul to Hallyu. The rhythm, the swagger, the scenery and the choreography … I mean it’s YB we’re talking about, these four attributs crown his style. After I listened to his song, I just couldn’t have enough of it and knowing that he was a member of BIGBANG made me even more curious about their music as a group. Fantastic Baby was the first song I listened to, however the MV was a little bit too hardcore for me (and all of you at some point, don’t deny it).

I kept listening to some of their songs, old and new, until I came across BANG BANG BANG. I was musically shot and I would gladly live the experience again and again. That’s when I told myself: that’s it, I am watching all of their Music Videos and listening to all of their music. As a matter of fact, I played all of their albums on Spotify for a good month; I did my house chores, ran my errands and travaled long miles while gracing my existence with their soulful music. I couldn’t study while listening to them though because I found myself jamming to them way more than I did the studying part: perks and flaws, right ?

As any newbie fan did, I watched some of their live performances, and it’s safe to say that every performance – even if it lasted less than five minutes – was a BIGBANG mini concert. They owned the stage like it was their home, the audience cheered with their cute yellow-crowned lightsticks and the feelings were surreal. I found myself unable to go to sleep without watching at least one live performance of theirs every night. I was hooked.

Being the reason behind my addiction and my mentor, Sunnie was actually the one who suggested that I should watch the live performances. She also advised me to watch an episode of BIGBANG on a variety show called “Happy together”, and boy, that episode was the best thing I have ever watched of OT5 to this day. They were truly happy together.

After watching the variety show, I looked further into BIGBANG. I identified myself as a VIP; a rookie still even after one year of stanning them, but a proud one. There was something about these five beautiful souls that made me feel complete. They have been through so much since their trainee days and they were still thriving after ten years; five Kings crowning their fans and the world with a one of a kind music.

However, my timing was a bit inconvenient. By the time I got to know BIGBANG, Top was already going to enlist. As I write these lines, our Bingu is getting ready to start his military service any minute now.

When I first learned about this, my heart literally ached because I felt that I was robbed of my fangirling feelings, I ended up avoiding watching their shows as OT5 and just collected them instead because I wouldn’t be able to cope with their absence for five years. As much as I’m happy with the upcoming solos, I knew BIGBANG as five; therefore my VIP feelings will always lack that missing piece of the puzzle until they reunite again, as five.

I am however grateful that their album remained unfinished until last December because it allowed me to witness one last comeback. It made me embrace my feelings as I cried my eyes out while watching the MVs and woke up every sunday morning to watch their Inkigayo performances, still crying after every stage because I knew that it was a farewell.

Now that Tabi is getting ready to leave, I think it’s time for me to rewind and catch up with the old and new. I have bingewatched half of Top’s filmography and left the other half for solace. Also, being a Taeyang biased, I have watched almost all of his show appearances and know his albums by heart. I still need to catch up with Seungri’s filmography and listen more to Daesung’s musical releases while silently praying for a Korean album.

I am trying to go through a ten-year content in the shortest amount of time possible. G-Dragon’s activities alone will take me a while, but I will make it. While the leader said that VIP made BIGBANG, in my case BIGBANG made me a VIP, therefore I will try to live up to the name and I will remain one until whenever.