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Once upon a Hallyu

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Esmee Narrates

Love yourself.

Serendipity: a term that means a fortunate happenstance or pleasant surprise.

Chapter One : Life

Upon my graduation, and while thinking that I have become too cool for school, I reached a point in my life where I had no more dreams. I wasn’t the bulletproof girl I used to be and I didn’t like it. I wanted to turn my life around but the thoughts inside my head felt like a circle room talk. Many questions kept popping inside my head like : aren’t you late to take such decisions? I hesitated, I rewound and I sighed. That’s when I answered myself : NO, I will go on until my answer becomes YES whenever I’m asked : Are you happy now ? I want to rule the world, I want passion to be my morning coffee. I want to rise again. To do that, I escaped life and buried myself in love.

Chapter Two : Love

I thought I found love in school, I thought I found that boy in love, that mister right; but school love affairs don’t always work as expected. When I found my so-called soulmate, I didn’t ask him where he came from. Instead, I simply asked him to stay, even if it’s for just one day, until tomorrow’s sun sets. Looking at our love story’s triptych, I secretly prayed that he won’t be a heart breaker. I didn’t want him to propose per se; I simply wanted him to jump with me into the unknown and live together peacefully.

Whenever I asked him “What am I to you?” The answer was always a typical romantic riddle. Ultimately, I ended up being caught in a dangerous relationship. Between the war of Hormones and the heartache, I wondered if my lover ever appreciated me the way a rapper is fond of Hip Hop. It’s a silly comparison, right ? Anyways, I wish he would’ve let me know before he rained over me with a Killer break up move. Ah, what am I doing ? I should turn off my phone and empty all of my worries through a neat blanket kick session. Look at me, I’m a 24/7 overthinker, turning my heaven into hell, and I don’t seem to catch a break.

Am I even making sense right now?

Chapter Three : Lust

As I wake up in the middle of the night and gaze from my window at the stars glowing beautifully, I ask myself: Is love the best moment in life ? Is it wrong to want someone in my life to tell me “I need you” instead of expecting me to read through his thoughtless mind? Is it wrong to want someone to hold me tight ? I had many expectations before, but now I am just that sick girl who likes to live freely and have fun wearing her high converse. Yes, I’m moving on, but love is definitely not over.

Chapter Four : Loss

Ah never mind, I keep running into love and I flee it like a butterfly. I am that lonely whale in the lost ocean. My city is in ruins and my home is underneath it. I am that silverspoon that tries to turn a wooden spoon into gold. I am that nomad that spent one night in a stranger city, watching dead leaves fall as I nostalgically imagine my old home while building it into a house of cards. My heart, soul, and mind are on fire. I wish someone would notice and save me from myself. I want to remain young forever, but does it mean my youth should come to an end now?

Chapter Five : Leap

On a good day, I try to see the positive things in life, and try to chase away the negativity by helplessly wishing on a star. For you, I’m a girl who’s seen, heard, and met evil. I gave it my blood, sweat, and tears. It began with a temptation, progressed with a lie, and ended in stigma. My first love is probably going to be my last. I reflect upon it and in return, it keeps my poor mother restless and awake at night, worried about how her once carefree daughter became this way. I feel lost at times, trying to solve the endless ciphers that life keeps throwing my way, and wondering where did I go wrong. I’m a 21st century girl hoping for many more good days to come. Even if it’s not today, even if that spring day will take its time to come, I will spread my wings in anticipation. I am not alone in this path; I never walk alone, but that’s a supplementary story to leave for another day. For now, I will learn to love myself.

 

 

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Mental: Patient Zero

Menbung (멘붕): in simpler words, mental breakdown.

They didn’t know what she was capable of, and neither did she … until now.

PROLOGUE: Girl meets the Ward

Entry I : BEGIN

Entry II : AWAKE

ENTRY III : Interlude – L

Entry IV : FIRST LOVE

Entry V : MAMA

Entry VI : Interlude – U

Entry VII : LIE

Entry VIII : STIGMA

Entry IX : Interlude – C

Entry X : REFLECTION

Entry XI : Lost in Cyphers

Entry XII : Interlude – Y

Entry XIII : Am I wrong ?

Entry XIV : 21st century illness

Entry XV : Blood, sweat and tears

Entry XVI : Not today

Entry XVII : Spring day

Entry XVIII : To many more good days

Entry XIX : You never walk alone

Entry XX : A supplementary story

Epilogue – Patient Zero

 

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Muse: Confessions of a Nomad

Nomad: a member of a community of people who live in different locations, moving from one place to another.

After graduating and working in a dental clinic for about two years, Lexi finally decided to take a break in order to pursue her dream: writing. Her tastes were always divergent, which explained why she had to reroute every now and then, and this time she chose literature as her escapade. Leaving her old life behind, she started a new chapter in a new destination: Seoul, South Korea.

PROLOGUE: Once upon a dream

CHAPTER I: A fresh start

CHAPTER II: The heart of Seoul

CHAPTER III: Beautiful coincidences

CHAPTER IV: Love and heartache

CHAPTER V: Where it all started

CHAPTER VI: Life decisions

CHAPTER VII: Que sera, sera

CHAPTER VIII: The interview

CHAPTER IX: A bright new day

CHAPTER X: Embracing life

CHAPTER XI: Sweet Tooth

CHAPTER XII: Visionary

CHAPTER XIII: Inner Monster

CHAPTER XIV: Relapse

CHAPTER XV: Reflection

CHAPTER XVI: Baby steps

CHAPTER XVII: A twisted tale

CHAPTER XVIII: Conflict of interest

CHAPTER XIX: Fated to love you

CHAPTER XX: Lost in translation

CHAPTER XXI: Separate ways

CHAPTER XXII: Summer vibes

CHAPTER XXIII: Confessions

CHAPTER XXIV: Love reunion

CHAPTER XXV: The ultimate gift

EPILOGUE: Crossing paths